Yeah. I hate how I forget things. Like, I'll have ideas and then forget them, then remember them later like it's some great fucking revelation, but then think 'hang on, I've thought this before'.
I joined the theatre group to get out of the house and to be around people. I thought I had a problem with contact, that there was something wrong with me.
But now I've remembered why I locked myself away to begin with. I hate being around most people. I hate the way I can't fucking connect with the majority. It feels like a major failure when you're screaming your ideas in someone's face and they stand there looking at you blankly. It only took me about a year to remember. Jesus.