Rehersal last night was great. But one thing I noticed is that people, especially women who've had children, are way too accustomed to people being insincere and begging for compliments. I was in my costume last night, and I look pretty fucking clownish. My bright white legs in those tennis shoes make me look like a cold seabird. And whenever I said anything that touched on this truth, I kept being told that I looked great and I shouldn't worry. I wasn't worried. I looked just flat out dumb, it was the truth, and none of them would let me say it. I gave up after a while, because the false compliments hurt as much as if they were pointing and laughing.