I'm sitting in the dark and it's raining. I just got up after lying in bed an hour thinking through things I'm going to say to people today. Also been thinking through the lyrics of Violent Femmes songs. Shaving my head in front of the mirror earlier today I noticed the beginnings of a paunch. I'm trying to decide whether to give into it gracefully or fight it off. Both approaches hold a little disgust for me. I might just start eating less, though I really can't see how I can possibly do that and stay alive.